never stay down
cautious, quiet, and collected.
take a deep breath and let’s not get ahead of ourselves.>
2012 part 2
STAYS THE SAME:
friends. you guys are amazing. i love everyone of you and want to get to know all of you even better.>
SHIT I’M CHANGING: eating habits, exercise habits, attitude.>
I lost all perspective of you,
And these dreams have turned into terrors
Now I’m falling awake.>
the fast life is gonna be the death of me.
is there anybody out there?
…anyways time to share,
” it’s a slippery slope and i fell into insanity “>
What happens when a man loses his faith? What does he turn to? Nature? Spirituality? Spirituality is a man made belief though. Who invented the idea of God? Man. If we turn to nature that’s considered to be a “naturalistic” way of life, another life style idea created by man. Society and media has taught us to view all aspects of life created by us. Because of that, where do we turn to now?>
When you move forward that’s when you miss things the most. Progression (or lack there of) LOVE>
if anyone was wondering
i’m doing better then ever. i’m happy and grateful to be alive. i have pretty big news that i want to get out there soon… and honestly things are falling right in place, one little piece at a time. remember that you can follow my lead. learn from me and then do better than me. i’m taking the fall for us. do it cause i’m not afraid of falling.
i’m trying my best now to be there for you because you were always there for me even when i did not deserve it.
i love you for that. honestly. so thank you.
and for everyone else… in regards of the big news… don’t ask how or why. just be happy for me cause that’s all i am. forget the past. it’s on to the future. it was fun but it’s time for other things. i love you all.
You know we spend so much of our lives not saying the things we want to say… The things we should say. We speak in code, we send little messages; origami. So now, plainly, simply, I want to say that I love you [both]. Very much.
…And remind them how lucky they are… to be free, because we are.
We’re free now, finally.
I listen to you talk but talk is cheap. And my mouth is filled with blood from trying not to speak. So search for an excuse and someone to believe you.>
the sky falls
and then my heart stops
the look in your eyes
melts me to the ground
and it all fades to black
and it’s just you and i
in this empty room.
you are my one last dance
as the room burns down.
save me from goodbye
cause i can’t stand it.
promise me this is forever>